Well, I have a couple things to say this morning. First, on Monday, I had one of the most romantic nights with a certain gentleman. We stayed at a hotel with an in room Jacuzzi. He had candles, champagne, and rose peddles in the bath. It was amazing. But of course reality hits me and I'm kind of overwhelmed. This gentleman is eight years younger. I have officially hit cougar status and I'm only thirty-one. Yikes!
Although we are not officially dating, that possibility is definitely there. He is sweet, manly, attentive, and compassionate. All things that I am looking for. I just don't know if I can get pass the age thing. I don't know if he is done with the party stage of life. I am well over all of that. The friends he has, are they like frat guys? He claims to know who he is and the direction he is going, but is it actually true? Does he just think this when in reality there is a lot of growing up to do? He is definitely mature for his age. I will give him that but is he mature enough? Then there is the own the road things in life. He claims that if he doesn't have kids that's fine. Well, considering I think I don't ever want kids, he may not have a chance if he sticks with me. Then there is the fact I'm still not sure about getting into a relationship too son. He understands this, which is good but how long will he stick around before growing tired of me?
I wish I had more answers instead of an abundance of questions. The only thing I can do now at this point is control my behavior and not dwell on it. This is going to be hard considering I'm naturally an over analyzing person...

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