The Younger Gentleman

Well, I have a couple things to say this morning. First, on Monday, I had one of the most romantic nights with a certain gentleman. We stayed at a hotel with an in room Jacuzzi. He had candles, champagne, and rose peddles in the bath. It was amazing. But of course reality hits me and I'm kind of overwhelmed. This gentleman is eight years younger. I have officially hit cougar status and I'm only thirty-one. Yikes!
Although we are not officially dating, that possibility is definitely there. He is sweet, manly, attentive, and compassionate. All things that I am looking for. I just don't know if I can get pass the age thing. I don't know if he is done with the party stage of life. I am well over all of that. The friends he has, are they like frat guys? He claims to know who he is and the direction he is going, but is it actually true? Does he just think this when in reality there is a lot of growing up to do? He is definitely mature for his age. I will give him that but is he mature enough? Then there is the own the road things in life. He claims that if he doesn't have kids that's fine. Well, considering I think I don't ever want kids, he may not have a chance if he sticks with me. Then there is the fact I'm still not sure about getting into a relationship too son. He understands this, which is good but how long will he stick around before growing tired of me?
I wish I had more answers instead of an abundance of questions. The only thing I can do now at this point is control my behavior and not dwell on it. This is going to be hard considering I'm naturally an over analyzing person...

Just an Observation

I just had a thought today for some reason. You know how they say the first person you are with after ending a relationship is considered a rebound? Well what is it considered if you already have just been having a good time with a few gentlemen and then you may get serious with one of them. Is that still under the category of rebound or are they upgraded to a new status? I am just really confused at this dating portion of being single. Unfortunately there is one gentleman who I would consider to get serious with, but I don't want to right now and I don't want him to be a rebound. This is a terrible situation. I'm afraid to mention him to people just because I am not ready to hear, "Wow that seems soon!" Although I have been separated since October of last year. How soon is too soon anyways?
My sister the other day told me that I'm still not allowing myself to be fully alone since I'm spending time with other men. I really have been spending the majority of time on myself but is it wrong to have some fun too? Well, in my books, you need an oil change every 3000 miles, if you know what I mean. I guess I'm sending out the wrong vibe, she says. According to her, I will always find the wrong guy if I continue this pattern. I really don't want to start a pattern here. Granted, I'm not looking for a relationship but it's nice to have a date once in a while just to keep me up to date on what's going on in the dating world. This may sound like a jumbled mess but I have been pondering this for a while. It just needed to be said.

Commitment Free Zone

Well I finally told "the good guy" about the other. He took it well but of course he said he was a bit jealous. I totally get that but maybe it's best to leave some thoughts in one's head.
So now that 's done I don't have to worry about keeping things low key. Well it's not like I'm going to cowing it. I just don't want to have to hide my attraction. That's all.rr
Although I'm a bit conflicted. I felt that this other person wasn't right for debut I'm starting to find that he might be. Granted he knows I'm not making any commitments for a long time and he is completely okay with that. Plus there is no pressure for me to just commit. I do like him a lot. I have been honest to myself about that. I just don't know what could happen but the fun part is I get to wait and see...