What are we thinking?!

Okay I know it's been a minute since I have written on this blog, but I really need to get this off of my chest. Why is it that woman end up choosing the bad boy over the good guy? Unfortunately, I am in this situation. Although I am not sticking with either one since the last thing I need right now is a relationship, but there are two guys striving for my attention. One is the sweet knight in shining armor and the other is the Johnny Depp mysterious bad boy. I am finding myself more attracted to the bad boy. Now why is that?

I have sat and pondered this. I can not come up with a conclusion. I always thought I would choose the good guy if I ever was in this situation. Now being in the situation, it's just not the case. Maybe deep down inside somewhere I want someone to torture me? I don't get this. I have chemistry with both. Maybe it's their approach. The good guy is more subtle, attentive and gentle. The bad boy is suave, seductive and playful. If anyone has insight on this topic please leave it.

Learning Where to Focus

The biggest thing that I've been trying to work on is directing my focus off of others and onto myself. There is so much I want out of life. I want a better career. I want to travel and see the world of course. My biggest problem is always putting myself last in front of others instead of first.

Since my separation, I have reconnected with so many people and I've been spending time building stronger relationships but I am getting concerned I am not making time for myself anymore. I come home from work and run. Now that I'm not attached to a man's schedule, I have filled it with friends instead. I need to learn to balance and say no to plans once in a while.

I did make a list of goals for this year and accomplished quite a few. The biggest one is writing the first draft to my book. I was happy with the start of it but I haven't touched it in a month now. I sit in front of the computer and stare. Then i get distracted by Facebook and the T.V.

Bottom line is even after your marriage crumbles and your social calendar opens up, you need to book a little time for yourself to make sure you are on the right path and your focus is on what really matters.

Hello Gentlemen That are a Little too Young...

So the craziest thing is happening lately. I have become a guy magnet. The worst part about it is the men that are after me are in their twenties! I know you're thinking "Geez what seems to be the problem?!" Well I'll tell you what the problem is. It's the fact that I would much rather meet a mature male not a college frat boy. I have had enough experience with guys in their twenties to know they are still boys needing to find themselves. I don't want to play the mothering figure helping them find the light. It's time for someone to take care of me for once.

I would much rather expose myself to a different scale. Maybe meet someone who is seasoned in their career, who has a great self awareness, confident, secure, but still able to have a fun side. With my new found self, I would prefer to find someone who can appreciate me and not try to make me his extra parent. If this is a hard search then I rather be alone...

Trip great!

So Stratford was wonderful. I have never so many beautiful homes in one location before. It was a friendly and quaint town. Now the Stratford Shakespearian festival was fabulous. I toured the costume department and saw Richard III played by a woman! I know! It was some of the best acting I have ever witnessed. I'm writing just a short blog on this due to my increasing topics that will be coming up soon. Tune in...